FAIL...

Yup... for all of you keeping track, I FAILED my 30 day thankful challenge. You win! 

Ugh. I rarely get a free moment now-a-days and when I do... I.JUST.DON'T.FEEL.LIKE.WRITTING.

THE END

{Day 3}...

I am grateful for my belief in God and the after life. I'm not a hugely spiritual person. I was not raised in a religious family. I never went to church. I'm not of a certain religion. I don't know a ton about the Bible, but I do know one thing... there is a God and when you die, it is not the end. I take great comfort in knowing this. I try to live a good life and teach my kids to live a good life... not just be sympathetic towards other people but, more importantly, teach them to be empathetic. I believe when you truly learn to be empathetic, you grow as a person and become a better person... with a better heart. I'm not certain that this is enough to get me to Heaven, but I'd like to believe it is.

... I don't know exactly where I'm going with all of this. I'm kind of rambling here. But, I'm grateful to know there is a God. I'm grateful that when I pray at night, I know there is someone listening. A close family friend died early this morning. I'm not sad for her. After all, how can you be sad for someone who is dancing, singing & laughing in the clouds and feels nothing but happiness and joy right now? I'm grateful and comforted that, that is what I believe. Her family & friends and all who are left behind are who I am sad for.

I've had several close people die in the last couple of years. They were all truly good people with good hearts. I just can't imagine them anywhere but in Heaven. Through each death, my belief in God and a continued after life has grown... and for that I am grateful.

R.I.P. Sue.

{Day2}...

Quiet morning/midnight snuggles. I don't care when they happen... I'll take them when I can get them. Sitting in a dark, quiet house with a snuggly baby, while the rest of the world is sleeping is like ahhhhh... the calm before the storm.  I don't get too many from Allie & Kole anymore... stinkers. So, I have to really soak up the ones with Clare & Hannah as much as I can, because soon I'm sure those will be few and far between too. Pretty soon Tim will be the only person who will snuggle with me! Hannah loves to snuggle. If I sit down during the day, right away she brings me her blanket, binky & kindle and says, 'nuggle me you'. Today {and everyday} I am thankful for snuggles.

 

Even this beast likes a good snuggle!

30 Days of Thanks

It's November... you know, the month we're supposed to 'give thanks'.  So what better way to break my blogging drought than to share with the wordl what it is that I'm thankful for. These 'thanks' are in no particular order. So here goes...

{DAY 1}...

 

Patience. I am thankful for the way that my patience has evolved through each child. Today I am a MUCH more patient mom than I've ever been.

 

 I've had several life happenings that have taught me a thing or two about being patient. But nothing has taught me more about patience than having 4 kids. I posted about Clare & her tupperware on Facebook this week, but I think it's a good example. I get so tired of cleaning up tupperware and half the time I end up having to run some of it through the dishwasher just to put it back and do it all over again. BUT... emptying the cupboard makes Clare happy, so we do it 365 times a day. She also likes to help me empty the dishwasher. Honestly, sometimes this drives me nuts. I quickly remove all the knives and then let her {one by one} remove each piece of silverware and throw it on the floor at my feet, for me to pick up and put it in the drawer. Everyday. We do this everyday. Patience. I remind myself ALL THE TIME that they won't be little forever and someday I'm going to miss it. Or how about Kole and his 356 hypothetical questions per day? This kid is the KING of hypothetical questions. But I answer them... and I will continue to answer them every.single.day until he asks them no more. Ahhhh, patience. And Hannah... oh sweet sweet Hannah... she is the one who taught me all about this patience stuff. Once I fully learned to be patient with my kids and really just let stuff go, let them have fun, let them be kids, I've found that I am so much happier and my kids are so much happier. You will NEVER EVER walk into my house and see it spotless, laundry completley done and put away, kitchen clean, sink empty. Nope... you'll always see toys out in our front yard {sorry neighbors!}, leaves or dirt tracked in through the house, kids & animals running amok, Hannah & Clare probably naked. Patience. Now, I'm no where near perfect. I can lose my cool with the best of em! I can't tell you how many times a day I have to take a deep breath and repeat 'Lord, give me patience'. Lets just all pray that this patience stuff sticks around through Hannah's horrible 3's {God help me, that's just 2 weeks away!}.





Compton Update...

Ooooh Memorial Day weekend, how I love you! You are giving me 3 {unheard of!} consecutive days with my husband at home... no work, no school & no POST. Yayyy!!! And lets not forget what Memorial Day is really all about. I'm grateful, trust me, I am! Having 2 brothers in the military... 1 who is currently deployed {for the 3rd time in 6 years!} and the other just graduated bootcamp last week. Thinking of them and what they are sacraficing makes me eternally grateful for the ones that have sacraficed their lives.

I've been HORRIBLE at blogging for the last year or so. I feel like I used to be so good at writting but over the years, I've kind of lost that creative fun side of me. My creative energy is currently going towards fixing up our house.

Soooo here's the Compton happenings...

Clare is almost 11 months old... seriously, I can hardly believe it! It seems like I blinked and she was crawling! But, truely, I'm ok with it. I know thats not right thing to say. I should be saying, "stay a baby forever... blah blah blah." But no, I've done my share of baby time, please don't stay a baby forever. lol! No seriously, she is the sweetest, most easy going baby. She has slept through the night since day one and continues to do so {praise Jesus!}, she's crawling everywhere, climbs up the stairs and eats EVERYTHING she can off the ground. She is very much like Allie was when she was a baby. Clare takes a lot of crap from the othe kids, so I have no doubt she'll be a toughy. Kole & Hannah often have a hard time remembering that she is not a rag doll... poor kid.

Hannah... is just Hannah. She still continues to be my spirited child. She's the one that you'll see me carrying, kicking & screaming out of Fred Meyer because she doesn't want to leave PlayLand {Fred Meyer's chilcare center}. I literally have to plan out our exits from places we go because I know that their will always be a meltdown... and 98% of the time, it's Hannah. She is the one that you will see running naked down the street. She's the reason we have to start loading up in the car 10 minutes early because she HAS.TO.BUCKLE.HERSELF! Very frusturating on the mornings we are running late to take the kids to school! She has to do everything herself. I find that our family runs on Hannah time and we all tiptoe around her, as to not to set her off. I know this is not somthing to be proud of, but sometimes you just gotta do what you gotta do to get through the day. Hannah is also one of the funniest kids I know. Half of the stuff she says & does, I have no idea where she came up with it! Funny little thing!

Allie & Kole are just finishing up school. Kole just graduated from preschool last week! YAY! Preschool was a bit of a mixed bag of emotions. Some days he liked it but most days he did not. He struggled with several different issues this year, healthwise, but he made it! And now we move onto Kindergarten, which I think he is going to LOVE! Allie really had a successful 1st grade year. She really struggled with reading at the beginning but her awesome teacher started staying with her every Wednesday after school to some reading activities with her to help her build up her confidence and it make a world of a difference. She actually really likes to read now and I and forever grateful to her teacher for that!

Tim just graduated with is associates in Criminal Justice. It seemed like a long 1.5yrs coming! He is sooo happy to have it done! He is also almost done with POST. We are all ready to get our lives back to 'normal'. Tim is a VERY hands on kind of dad, so it's been hard on all of us to have him away so much. I have to say, though... once again, Tim & I have proven to grow stronger in a hard time, and I am so proud of both of us for that. I just love that man!

As for me... I've just been holding down the fort. I am LOVING being a stay-at-home mom. We definitly have our hard moments that I don't love so much, but the good always out weigh the bad. I am really looking forward to the summer with the kids. We'll be hanging at the pool, staying lots of extra long weekends in McCall, playing with friends, going to Seattle and maybe even a trip to Vegas in August {eeeek!}.

I'm running out of time.. I'll post some pictures later this weekend! Happy Memorial Day everyone!

WANT!

Roller Coaster of Emotions...

This whole unexpected pregnancy had really thrown me for a loop. Tim & I toyed with the idea of having a 4th child... but that thought really didn't last long. Our lives were already full, the 3 kids we had already kept us busier than busy and I already felt that my time with each one was stretched to it's limit. I had 3 kids, how could I love another one as much as I loved them? Hannah was to be my last baby... so naturally I had babied her. I couldn't imagine her being a big sister... she was supposed to be my baby. So, in our hearts, we were done and ready to move onto the next stage of our lives... raising our 3 children. No more pregnancies... I gave away all of my maternity clothes. No more newborns... I gave away all of my baby clothes. No more all nighters with a newborn, no more nursing... and my heart was ok with this. I was ready to move on from that stage.
I remember feeling very angry and in disbelief when I found out I was pregnant. It didn't feel real to me. I just could not wrap my mind around having another baby in our family. This was not in our plans and I had already mentally checked out of the whole pregnancy & newborn thing. Over time, friends & family would ask how 'I was doing', 'how I was feeling' & if 'I was getting excited' and my answers were always the same... 'I'm not ready'... 'I still can't believe I'm having another baby'... 'it doesn't feel real yet' and sometimes I'd just lie and put on a good smile and say 'yes, we're so excited!' These were my answers pretty much right up until I delivered. LOL! I didn't buy anything or set anything up for this unexpected baby until pretty much a few weeks before she arrived. One thing that did help through this roller coaster of emotions {to say the least} was that this was a really easy pregnancy physically. I did not get sick, I never got terribly achy or hormonal and I was sleeping through the night for the most part up until I delivered.

I got my cerclage placed at 13 weeks, took my 22 weeks of progesterone injections {man am I glad I'll NEVER have to do those again!} and then got my cerclage removed at 35 weeks. Hannah arrived 7 days after my cerclage was removed so I was expecting about the same with this one. So we waited... and waited... and waited. My anxiety about delivery day was through the roof this time around. You'd think, this being my 4th, I would feel confident but I was sooo scared and I can't really explain why. I'm typically not an anxious person but I told Tim that he was going to have to pull me into that hospital kicking & screaming when the time came. At my 38 week check-up I was 5cm dialated and contracting off & on. My goal with this LAST baby was not to have to use pitocin like I did with my other 3 kids. My mind was completely set on it. I wanted to experience natural contractions and not those harsh pitocin contractions. My dr. was on board with it. Once I hit 39 weeks, I was still 5cm dialated & 100% effaced and contracting more regularly {this is all very normal for me}. I asked if he could just break my water and let me start labor on my own, and he agreed.

Soooo... the evening of July 10th, we had a nice family dinner for my grandma's birthday then we went home and packed our hospital bags {yep, I hadn't even packed MY hospital bag}. We went to bed around 11pm and I cried myself to sleep, thinking of all the things that could go wrong and the possibility of not making it through the delivery and never seeing my children again {silly & dramatic, I know!}. The morning of July 11th, we woke up late {of course!}, I jumped in the shower, got ready while Tim packed the car and said good bye to our sleeping children. We arrived at the hospital and were put in the 'old' part of L&D. The room was very small and a bit out dated. I was quite disappointed and nervous about the amount of room we had for the crew that was going to be with us that day... our photographer, Tim, my mom & my friend Shane. But my nurse was soooooo sweet and so helpful. Both her & my dr. reassured me that it would all be fine and 'the more the merrier!' LOL! Dr. Hodges broke my water around 8:30am. I walked the halls and laid in bed for the next several hours waiting for contractions to pick up. They picked up some, but nothing timable. I should also add that I was put on a new monitoring system for my contractions & baby's heart beat. I had electrodes placed all over my belly and the contractions & heart rate were monitored wirelessly. I was the FIRST women in Idaho to have this done.... so special, right?! ;o) After several hours my nurse suggested I sit on the birthing ball. So the ball it was! I rocked back & forth and side to side for about 15 minutes and my contractions & pressure immediately started to change. I requested an epidural right away because I could tell things were changing FAST. Once my epidural was placed, I was checked and found to be 7cm dialated. Within 20 minutes I called the nurse because I was ready to push. She called my dr. right away and he literally ran from his office across the street to get here in time. I pushed through 3 contractions and out she came. My delivery was PERFECT! And she was healthy! Clare Ann Compton was born at 2:41pm, weighing 6lbs. 12oz. and 18 inches long. She was/is perfect.

How I could have ever questioned/stressed so much how I could ever love another child the way I love my others is now beyond me. I love Clare so much! This is my 4th baby... I should have known that my heart would just grow for her. She is a great sleeper & nurser and just the sweetest little thing. And now of course, I can't imagine NOT having her. My heart is truly so so so happy.

With that said, we are now officially DONE. DONE having kids! This is it. I forgot to mention, we got Tim fixed while I was still pregnant to make sure there would be no more suprises. LOL!

A little thing we call 'LIFE'...

Tim

work

homework

coaching the kids t-ball teams

playing reserve cop in Boise County

nightly wrestling matches with the kids

picking up mom's slack on house work & daily chores

pretty much being super dad & super husband!!!

Jacki

growing a baby whom will soon be making her grand entrance

chasing babies & kids around the house

shuffling kids to & from t-ball games

daily afternoon naps

doing lots of washing, folding & hanging

sorting, throwing away, donating... nesting

feeling baby kicks

counting contractions

sleeping through the WHOLE night at 35 weeks pregnant {making for a happy momma!}

Allie

independent

playing mother hen

a coloring fool

playing momma to her babies

making her own PB&J's

playing coach pitch/t-ball

helping mommy with laundry & cleaning

sleeping in her new bunk bed

sharing a room with Hannah

missing school & her teacher

studying to become a 1st grader

watering the flowers

swinging higher than ever

changing outfits 3x per day

Kole

playing army guys

going going going from sun up to sun down

hunting down bugs in the backyard

playing shadow to daddy

amazing fit thrower & whiner

playing t-ball

batting left handed & throwing right handed

still taking daily naps

digging in the dirt

making gun & sword holsters out of anything

getting warmed up for preschool this fall

enjoying having his own room again

tormenting his sisters

giving mommy daily massages

finally fitting into 4t clothing {he's almost 5}

being a jokster

in denial that he's having ANOTHER sister

Hannah

wanting to do everything herself

still enjoying her daily bananna & poptart for breakfast

being our entertainer & jokster

sharing a room with big sister

wandering around the yard with the big kids

loving her new swing

being our little fish in the bathtub, pool or hose

constantly in need of a 'yum'

pantry shopper

cupboard emptier

laundry unfolder

toy box dumper

non-meat eater {she is clearly NOT a Compton!}

dwindling down to just 1 nap per day

saying 'mama', 'yum', 'cheese', 'yep' & 'spongebob'

Clare

35 weeks old, still holding out in mommy's tummy

weighing in right around 5lbs.

head down

having a case of the hiccups about 4-6 times per day

giving mommy contractions

kicking mommy in the bladder

poking mommy in the belly button {icky feeling if you can imagine}

packing on the pounds, in prep to make her grand entrance in about 2-3 weeks

27 weeks...

I'm not brave enough to post a picture. I'm just not feelin it this time around. I already weigh more than when I gave birth to Allie, Kole or Hannah. UGH! The worst part, I just realized my drivers license is expired and I have to go get a new one! Why now?! Why do I need to get my mug shot taken when my chin is clearly pregnant too?! And what the heck to I put down for my 'weight'? LOL!

Buuut... I can't complain too much. I think this has been a pretty easy pregnancy compared to Allie & Kole's. This pregnancy is pretty similar to Hannah's. I'm starting to get the aches & pains and tiredness that comes along with the 3rd trimester. I often have to take little cat naps during naptime during the day and then I'm in bed for the night around 9:30pm. So far my progesterone injections & cerclage are doing their jobs. I haven't had to do any bedrest and hopfully it will remain that way. I'll be taking my last progesterone injection in about 8 weeks and will be getting my cerclage taken out in 9 weeks. And then she is free to come anytime after. YIKES!!! I don't feel ready. LOL!

Allie used to love to put her hand on my belly when I was pregnant with Hannah. It was really exciting for her to feel the kicks & bumps. This time for some reason, she has no interest at all. I ask her all the time if she wants to feel the baby move and she just doesn't. She is, however, excited for the baby to come. Kole likes to feel the baby move. Though, he doesn't often sit still long enough to actually feel her move. He just puts his hand on my stomach and quickly says, 'I feel her!' and then runs off. Typical boy. He is VERY much into pampering me though. I love it! He talks very softly and sweetly when asking if I want a massage or my hair brushed. He likes to hear my feedback on his massage skills too. LOL! I often hear, 'is this the best massage mom?', 'do you like me to brush your hair so will grow like Ripunzel's?' So cute! Hannah... well... she just has no clue whats about to happen. If she's sitting my lap and I ask her to give the baby a love, she'll turn to my belly and lay her head on it, but she really has no clue that there really is a baby inside.

I'm getting excited to meet this little person inside of me! I can't wait to see who she looks like. Allie & Kole look more like Tim, while Hannah looks more like me. Who will this little gal look like? Allie & Kole were baldies, while Hannah was born with lots of hair. Will this little one have hair? She will be here before we know it!!!!

Family Closet...

So I mentioned a couple of weeks ago on Facebook about our Family Closet plans. You see, all of our bedrooms are upstairs and our laundry room is downstairs {obviously a women did not come up with this house plan! Just sayin.}. Anywho, we also have this spare bedroom downstairs that just happens to sit right next to this said laundry room... convenient. This room is pretty much just a 'catch all' room for our family. We really didn't use it or need it. Soooo, I came up with this brilliant idea to turn it into a big walk-in closet for the kids. So I did some digging around on the internet for some inspiration. Unfortunately for me, the only family closets that I could find were for huge 'Dugger size' families and they were NOT cute. So I had to come up with my own.

So, here we have the Compton family closet. This is just one side of the room. The other side is identical. Each kid will have their own section. I made the curtains at the bottom to cover up their shoe bins that will go underneath. And each kid has 2 baskets, one for undies & one for socks.

On the opposite wall of the window is a smaller wall that will hold this full length mirror. I will hang this cute yellow floating shelf {it hasn't found a permanent home in my house for like 2 years} underneath the mirror, sort of as a little counter/shelf/getting ready table. I think it will go perfectly there. The round silver mirror, I'm not really sure where it is going but I'm sure it will find a home in here too.

And finally, I picked up 3 of these cute little bow holders for all 3 girls {i still can't believe I'm going to be the mom of 3 girls! 3GIRLS!!!}. They will be hung to the side of the mirror.

I still have quite a bit to do in this room. Some red curtains need to be hung. My 'Laundry' sign will be hung above the window. I'm going to pick up some cube benches from Target to put underneath the window for a place to put shoes on and more storage. We also have a beautiful blue baby changing table that is no longer being used. Tim is going to build a top for it to turn it into a folding table to put in the middle of the room. I'm so excited for this! Also, I found an easy tutorial on Pinterest to create the profile silhouette of each child. I'll frame those up and hang them above each kid's section. Super cute! I'm so excited to get this 'closet' done! You will probably ALWAYS find me in here! I can just picture myself in here, listening to some music, smelling some clean breeze Scentsy, folding some laundry. Eeeeeek!!!! :o)

the things I want to remember...

I feel like I have so many things I want to post about my kids. Each day just goes by so fast and I feel like before I know it, we'll be 10 years down the road and I won't remember any of these little details that are so important to me now. I've never been good about writing in my kid's baby books. I'm just not that mom. I find myself more often sitting back and soaking things in and just watching them.

Allie, now at the age of 5... almost 6... she is the sweetest thing. She is my little mother-hen. She likes to keep everyone in check and make sure everyone is doing the right thing. She doesn't really like to live on the edge... she's more of a 'play it safe' kinda gal and she wants to make sure everyone is safe around her. To say the least, she deeply cares about everyone around her. She often comes home from school and tells me stories about how, 'so&so' was mean to 'so&so' and that that probably really hurt her feelings... and it's not good to hurt peoples feelings... because how would we like it if someone hurt our feelings... and... and... and. She typically likes to talk about this in length. With all this sweet talk, I do have to say she's got her little evil side too. She's learning how to manipulate her little brother and she's pretty sly about it. And when trouble comes, she's quick to point the finger at him. She's also becoming waaay more independent than I want her to. She's got her own ideas of what she wants to wear, how she does her hair, what she wants to eat, when she wants to eat... you name it, she can argue about it. I know it just comes with the territory though. Overall, I'm proud that so far I've raised a pretty caring kid. And, man, is she a daddy's girl! She LOVES her daddy!

Kole, now 4.... he is BUSY. He is going from the time he wakes up to the time he goes to bed! Unlike Allie, he definitely lives his little life on the edge. Pretty much nothing scares him. And he is ALL boy. I constantly find him with a sword in his belt loop and his rain boots on. He is very content playing by himself and actually really thrives on it. He likes to setup all of his army guys in rows facing each other ready for a combat. He can play like this for hours... by himself. This poor little guy is surrounded by girls. He's learned to play pretty well with them... though his testosterone comes out eventually. Usually some army guys will come busting into Allie's perfectly setup Barbie house and then it's world war 3 between the 2 of them. Kole thinks it's hilarious {and so do I}! I've also learned that Kole is a very sensitive little soul. Very sensitive. He has always been this way.He gets his feelings hurt very easily and he tends to over think things, which often breaks my heart. We've struggled with this for the last few years, but I'm hoping it will be something that he'll grow out of if we work on it enough. This little kid also has his dad's humor. He loves to tease & play jokes on people. He is not shy. He's that kid that will stick his head out the window of the car and carry on a conversation with a complete stranger. I'm not sure if that's a good thing or a bad thing. LOL! I love this little guy... he's a little bit of everything and he definitely keeps me on my toes! I feel like I could go on and on about Kole because he just has so many sides to him. He's definitely an interesting little devil.

Hannah, now almost 16 months is my mischievous, not scared of anything kid. I think she's going to be a lot like Kole. She's tougher than he is though. LOL! Like I explained in my last post, Hannah is the ruler of this roost. Basically, we all bow down to this little girl. She loves Allie and most of the time is scared of Kole. LOL! They are both a little rough with her at times and I find myself often swooping into rescue her. She LOVES to sit at the table with the kids in the playroom and eat snacks with them. She just grins from ear to ear the whole time and you can tell she feels like such a big kid. Of all the kids, I think Hannah looks the most like me when I was a baby. Finally! One of them looks like me! Allie & Kole just look so much like Tim.  Like Allie, Hannah is also a daddy's girl. When Tim walks in the door after work, she just lights up like nothing else! If she's in the playroom and hears his boots walk through the house, she comes out all wide eyed looking for him. I love it {and so does Tim!}. I know we're going to create a monster but she really is the little princess in this house {for now, until this new little baby girl comes along!}.

I just love these guys, each in their own way. It's so funny... I remember after I had Allie, I absolutely could not imagine loving another little person like I loved her. I even cried about it when I found out I was pregnant with our 2nd child. Then Kole came along and my heart grew... then Hannah came along and my heart grew even more. I have no doubt, as hard as mother-hood will be with 4 kids, that once this new baby girl comes, my heart is going to be HUGE! I sure feel like one lucky mamma!

Here's some wrestling time with daddy. This is pretty much a daily occurrence before bedtime each night. This is usually when I just sit back on the couch and soak it in. Even though we have a lot of things up in the air right now and we may have more questions than answers, I feel very content with my life. I have a very happy heart. :o)

Hannah-15 months...

God, I love these girls. Hannah is just getting more fun by the minute. She truly has each one of us in this house wrapped around her littlest little finger. She rules this house and she knows it! Being the youngest of 3 kids, she's really taken on a 'fight or flight' personality. She is a tough, feisty little gal... and she pretty much has to be to survive around here. She gets drug around by her toes, squeezed & hauled around by her arm pits. She really does take a lot around here... it's pretty funny. But she's a trooper and just goes with it, because that's all she really knows. LOL!

I love these pictures that I was able to capture last weekend. Such a typical weekend morning sharing some cereal with big sister Allie...

25 things...

 Here are 25 random things that you may or may not know or want to know about yours truely...
1} I'm not a movie person. I'll tolerate a movie at home once in awhile {and I usually end up enjoying it} but don't ever ask me to go see a movie in a movie theater... I won't go and if I did go, I'd fall asleep.

2} I didn't kiss a boy until I was 16 years old.

3} When Tim & I first started dating, I didn't really like him because he was too nice to me.

4} I makes lists... lots & lots of lists

5} I'm ashamed to admit this but I did not fully bond with Allie & Kole after they were born until they were several months old. Very sad to think about but I think it had something to do with them being in the NICU when they were born.

6} I'm STILL afraid to wake up during the 3am hour... you know, the whole ghost thing really freaks me out.

7} I have this thing with band-aids & stickers. I HATE the sticky aspect and all the icky things that are probably stuck on it. I will not touch one if I don't have to and I CRINGE when my kids put a sticker on me. ICK!!!!

8} I'm a project starter but not a project finisher.

9} Through the last 5 years it has taken me losing things to realize that I already have everything.

10} I don't have a sense of style. I suck at putting outfits together and suck even more at accessorizing. I'm following in my mother's foot steps! ;o)

11} I hold a grudge for awhile but then I'm quick to forgive... but not as quick to forget.

12} I love being pregnant! I may not always be good at it but I do love it.

13} If I had $10,000 to spend on anything, I probably would not spend any of it on clothing for myself. I'm not exactly sure how I'd spend it but I am NOT a clothes shopper!

14} I can push my stomach out to make myself look 9 months pregnant on command. This is a talent I've had since I was a kid. I think I was just born to be preggo! ;o)

15} I almost ALWAYS give people the benefit of the doubt. Sometimes a good thing but probably a lot of times a bad thing.

16} I have NEVER been on a relaxing vacation. I've only been to big cities where we go-go-go all the time.

17} My final meal would consist of crab, asparagus, mashed potatoes & tacos.

18} I can eat a bigger steak than my husband can.

19} I wear makeup maybe once or twice per week.

20} I often wish I had a job that I actually got ready for and had to look presentable for. In my line of work, I find that 3yr olds could give rats ass how I look.

21} I have this weird habit of constantly running my fingers along my scalp. Not sure what I'm looking for...

22} I am really struggling to come up with more things to say about myself here...

23} I'm a good speaker. I can pretty easily get up in front of a group and speak but with that being said, I feel awkward in a group setting and usually remain the quiet one.

24} I hate having long finger nails. I cannot stand to have the white of my natural nails showing. The feel of long natural nails gives me the heeby-jeebies.

25} My boobs are 2 different sizes. :o)

another baby???

{15 weeks}



It still hasn't really hit me yet. Like... not at all. I seriously can't imagine going through the newborn stage again. It's not so much the pregnancy part that I hate, because I actually LOVE being pregnant. I just seriously can't fathom doing the newborn thing again. But, I guess I better get used to the idea. I'm currently almost 16 weeks pregnant and this baby will be coming whether we're ready or not. Tim, bless his heart, has actually come to terms with all of this a lot faster than I have. He's excited! He's always been drawn to big families. So he's excited and he hoping for another boy.

I know in the end, when this baby is born I will love it like no other and I have no doubt that this baby will complete the Compton family. Did I mention that Tim will be scheduled to get the big 'V' while I'm still pregnant?! Yes, this is true... we need to make sure we will not be receiving anymore little suprise baby Comptons. :o)

And just for fun....

How far along? 16 weeks on Wed.

Total weight gain? ehem... 13 lbs. Yikes! I've never gained weight with any of my pregnancies this fast before. My TOTAL weight gain with Allie was 13 lbs!!!

Maternity clothes? definitly YES on pants but I'm wearing maternity and regular tops

Stretch marks? no new ones. I don't think there is any room on my abdomen for any new ones. Lord help me!

Sleep? sleeping pretty good right now. Just waking up with my newborn 14 month old several times per night.

Best moment of the week? nothing to do with MY pregnancy, but I'll be visiting a very dear friend in the hospital today who is about to have her first baby.

Movement? no 'for sure' movement. Hoping it's coming soon though!

Food cravings? sweet potoato fries please!

Anything making you feel sick? pre cooked chicken

Gender? Tim & I both think BOY

Labor signs? no signs of labor thank God. I'm all stitched up!

Symptoms? oily skin and some serious round ligament pains during the night.

Belly button in or out? belly button in

Wedding ring on or off? wedding ring still on

Moody or happy? for the most part happy but Tim can often make me cry pretty easily

Looking forward to? feeling some kicks and finding out the gender in a few weeks {Feb 24th}

A bit late... but that's how I role...

alas....... MY NEW YEAR'S RESOLUTIONS... ehem...

#1}finish certain projects around the house. Such as...

my dresser that I converted into a tv armoir several years ago.  It used to be a natural wood color that went with the rest of our bedroom set. I painted it an espresso color, put new knobs on and took the 2 drawers out and converted them into shelves for our receivers. Now, 3 years later, the shelves still need to be painted and the whole dresser desperatly needs to be sealed. I also need to conceal the cords from the tv on the wall.

This whole mantel needs to be ripped off. Beings that Tim works at lumbar yard, it shouldn't really be too expensive at all. Idealy, I'd love a chunky distressed wood mantel, stained the same espresso color as my tv armoir. I just HATE this cookie cutter oak mantel. Ick!

This project is a little harder to see... but it's there. I LOVED the creamy butter cream yellow we had on our walls in our old home. So, I painted our living room in this house with the same paint. Only... we ran out of paint. So I need to get the tiny bit of paint we have left matched so we can continue on. The wall colors in this whole house is an icky beige color. I would LOVE for the whole house to have my butter cream walls just like my hold home.

oh jeez... and then onto this eye sore of a kitchen. Again... hello 'cookie cutter' oak kitchen cabinets. We re-did the top cabinets last year. It was so much work and such a loooong process. But the bottom ones have GOT to get done. It makes my stomach churn to even think about how long that process will be with all of the drawers, cupboards & trim work. It's more than twice the amount of cabinets as the top ones. But I do LOOOVE the look of the top ones and it was super-duper cheap to do. Anyone want to volunteer??? Come on! Come help a preggo out!

And then this. The bench part of this hall tree needs to be removed all together and re-done. Pretty simple to do... I just need to convince Tim of that.

Other projects around the house... our down stairs bathroom & both kids bedrooms.

#2} Take care of myself. Put myself first more often. This seriously sounds selfish... but it's not... well, it is but in a good way. I really have let myself go since having my 2nd child. I'm no longer a petite size like I was in high school or even when Tim & I got married. And now that baby #4 is on it's way, I know I won't be losing any weight this year. But I can still take care of myself. I ALWAYS am putting my kids first. I feel like my life is KIDS KIDS KIDS... all day & all night. I always feel tired & run down. I don't wear makeup everyday anymore and I sure don't do my hair everyday anymore. My poor husband {not sure how we made baby #4 with me looking this way!}. I vow to change that though. I need more me time!

#3} De-clutter my house. Pretty much every single room in this house has some sort of toy{s} in it. Sometimes having a bigger house is not the best... just means more room to store STUFF. I'm sure The Arch loves us. We have stuff to donate to them every single month when they call. They know they can always count on the Compton family. But apparently, it's not enough. We still have so much stuff. I would just love to SIMPLIFY.

#4} Be a more patient mother. I'm fairly patient. But I'd love to be MORE patient. I wish I was the mom who liked make cookies with my kids... make home made play-doh... do lots of crafts. But I'm not. I like to hurry up and make the cookies real fast... because it's easier. And the thought of a big huge mess from making play-doh or any other big craft with my kids is just dreadful to me. It typically ends up with somthing getting spilled, someone crying or someone getting too frusturated. LOL! And I'm usually the one frusturated... and sometimes crying. :o)

Those are my New Years resolutions. Happy 2012 everyone!!! Here's to a year of lots of changes for the Compton's. A new baby and a new adventure for my hubby!



happy 1 year of life to my Hannah-bug...

this little person has me absolutley wrapped around her finger. She has been a great addition to our family and makes us laugh every single day. As nervous as I was about having a 3rd baby, I absolutley CANNOT imagine my life without her. I never thought transitioning to 3 kids could be so easy. Allie plays mother hen with Hannah. She likes to love & protect her. Kole plays rough with her but now that Hannah is older, she loves it. She used to be terrified of him... for good reason! LOL! But now, no one can get Hannah to laugh the way Kole can. She just adores her big brother & sister. Being the 3rd child, she is one tough cookie! She can pretty much endure anything. LOL! We love you Hannah-buggy-boo!!!!



just random...

It's 9:30pm on Sunday night and for some reason I'm feeling the need to post... that being said, I don't feel like I have anything exciting to post about. Sooooo... I am randomly choosing pictures with my eyes closed and I'll post them here... and then maybe write about them. Hows that?! Here goes...

#1} this one was taken about 1 month ago. Just nonchalantly drinking chugging her bottle.

#2} this picture cracks me up! Check out the size of the water gun Kole is hawling around... it's the same size as the kid!

#3} this one happens to be from the same album. Tim & the kids fishing off the end of our dock in McCall. I love this place! This place is pure heaven in the summer and I am SO SO SO glad our kids will have so many memories up here.

#4} Hannah watching intently as daddy cuts her finger nails

Ok... so thats it for the random pictures. And apparently my random mouse cursor did not pick any pictures of Allie. Sorry Allie... next time I guess! I'm going to hit the hay! I'm tired but I have to say it's been a great weekend. Tim & I put the kids to bed on Friday night and had a couple of gin & tonics together. We're so cool. But I like our kind of cool! Saturday we made a family shopping trip to the mall {bleh!}. Then went to Old Chicago and greased ourselves up with their Doubledecoroni Pizza {yum!} and ended our Saturday night having dinner with our neighbors. This morning we again had our neighbors over for a big yummy breakfast that included mickey mouse pancakes for the kiddos. Overall, it was a great lazy day for Tim & the kids and I got some errands & alone time I needed. We finished off our Sunday night with dinner at my dad & Colleen's. And thats that. I'm off to bed!

I love this boy...

Kole recently turned 4 years old. I can't believe it! Unfortunatly, on his birthday he ended up getting a horrible flu bug. It came out of no where. He at least got to enjoy some special birthday pancakes before the bug came on. He was so miserable that we ended up skipping the presents & cake that day. We just didn't make a big deal out of his birthday that day. I figured that would save him some heartache of know he's missing out on an exciting day. We just saved the fun stuff for his actual birthday party... and I'm so glad we did!

things I want to remember...

*he definitly gives me a run for my money! He is the 'go-go-go-go... CRASH!' kinda kid. If only I had half the energy he does!

*he is such a good sleeper now. If you would have asked me when he was a little baby, my answer would have been totally diferent.

*he is a lover & a pleaser. He likes to sit by me on the couch in the evenings and rub my arm with his finger tips. lol! He likes to do it because he knows I like it. :o)

*he loves to do my hair.

*he ties anything he can get his hands on to pretty much anything else he can get his hands on. And damn if that kid can't tie a mean knot!

*he is VERY sensitive and he's got to be approached in a very careful way. He doesn't always know how to control his emotions. I'm still learning how to deal with this. It's something we struggle with pretty much every single day.

*he says the FUNNIEST things!!! Tim & I are always thinking, 'where did he learn that?!'

*he LOVES to play tricks on people and he is seriously good at it {just like his dad!}

*he likes to dress up and he's pretty good at picking his clothes out.

*that being said, he also likes to dress silly... bike helmet, life jacket & snow boots are among his favorite!

*his snow boots are his favorite shoes... whether it's summer or winter.

*he ALWAYS has somthing connected to his belt loop... ALWAYS. Whether it be a key chain or two or usually a make shift gun and/or sword through the belt loop {like a holster}.

*he ALWAYS tels me 'I wubs you mommy' :o)

I did a 'funny' the other day...

Having the baby formula right next to the coffee pot is not a smart decision on my part. But... that is where it sits. And that is where it has always sat. I often get up EARLY in the morning {like 4:45am now-a-days!} and I'm the one who typically makes the coffee. There have been a number of times that I have almost scooped the formula into the coffee pot instead of the coffee. Oops. But I always catch myself... until a couple of weeks ago. I actually did it. I put one full scoop of formula into the coffee pot... oh yes I did.

the 7 year itch... but I'm not itchen...

Happy 7 year anniversary to my hubby & I!!!
7 years sounds like a long time but it has gone by so quickly. 16 years of friendship... 10 years together... 7 years married... 5 years of being parents together... and he is still my very bestest friend. This guy makes me a better person and I love him for that. What a beautiful life we have made together.

{I wish I could find our jr. high picture from when we were 'going out' to add here}